First the standard version failed to appeal
First it became obvious that the ordinary pleasures were not yours, and then you spent years working out what actually was. Pluto in Aquarius in the 5th house puts the refusal to conform into romance and enjoyment, so your appetites have never matched what was on offer.
Read the Aquarius half as the water everybody in your birth years was swimming in, since Pluto crosses a sign over decades and colours the whole span alike. Your own address in that water is the 5th house, decided by the hour you were born. It puts the deviation into love and play specifically, which is why the shape of your relationships has always required explaining to other people.
What people meet when you are interested
They meet warmth held at a slight distance, real attention and an unmistakable reserve, all at the same time. It is attractive and confusing in equal parts, and people routinely misjudge how involved you are in both directions. Say where you actually stand at around the fourth week, in plain words, since your behaviour genuinely does not indicate it and they have no other source.
What came down the line before you
There was somebody in your family whose choice of person, or refusal to have one, sat outside what was acceptable, and it was discussed or pointedly not discussed. What reached you was permission and warning in the same package. It has been shaping who you allow yourself to want since long before you noticed.
Where the detachment jams
At the point where something starts to matter, you become interested in the structure of it rather than in the experience: what this means, where it is going, whether the arrangement is sound. The analysis is excellent and it is a withdrawal. Notice it as it starts, and say the plain feeling badly before the good analysis arrives.
An appetite that does not need approval
What you enjoy is genuinely yours, assembled over years rather than inherited from anybody, and that is rarer than it sounds. The work remaining is dropping the defence you keep wrapped around it. Do one of your unusual pleasures in front of somebody without explaining it first and without the preemptive joke, since the explaining is what converts a preference into a position that has to be held.
It starts as friendship and stays partly that
The people you fall for tend to be friends first, and the friendship never entirely converts, which is what keeps the relationship interesting to you and what partners sometimes experience as being kept at arm's length. Both readings are fair. Say which one is happening, because they cannot tell from the outside and they have stopped asking.
Making something nobody has commissioned
Your creative work is at its strongest when it answers a question nobody has asked yet, which makes it hard to sell and occasionally very valuable. Do not sand off the strange part in order to make it legible. Find the small audience who already want exactly that, since a general audience will only ever want a diluted version.
What delights you is not what delights them
Your pleasures are specific, sometimes obscure, and largely unshared, and you have spent years treating that as an obstacle to social life. It is simply the shape of it. Stop apologising for the interests and start seeking out the few people who have the same ones, since they exist and you have not been looking.
Enjoyment that involves other people building something
Your best time is had making something with a group rather than being entertained by one: the project, the collective, the thing that would not exist otherwise. Purely social occasions leave you flat and slightly guilty about it. Choose the version with a task in it, and stop describing that preference as antisocial.
New input where sleep should be
When you are depleted your hand goes to something unfamiliar rather than to bed, and the unfamiliar thing genuinely does lift you for an hour, which is exactly why the deficit keeps compounding. The nervous system settles the difference later and without warning. Treat the appetite for something new after midnight as a fatigue reading rather than as an interest, and act on it accordingly.