What do you believe that you could not defend
What do you believe that you could not defend in an argument? With the North Node in Pisces in the 9th house, meaning is supposed to include things you cannot prove: the intuition, the sense of it, the conviction with no evidence attached. You need one belief you hold without a case.
Everything you currently believe can be justified, which sounds like a strength and means the whole of your worldview fits inside what can be argued for. A good deal of what is true does not.
Believing without evidence feels irresponsible
Holding something on intuition rather than on grounds registers as intellectually careless, which is why the sense you have about things never quite gets promoted to a belief. Notice that you act on those senses anyway, most weeks. Bring one of them out of the basement, name it out loud, and then let it stand unjustified.
Checking whether it is supported
The retreat is verification: an intuition arrives, and within a minute you are testing it against what is known and discarding it if the support is thin. Some things arrive before the evidence does. Write one down before you check it, keep the note, and look again in a year to see what it was.
Travel without an itinerary
Start with a journey where nothing after the first day is planned, or a course you take with no idea whether it will be useful. The requirement is an absence of purpose and outcome. Being somewhere without a plan is the physical form of this practice, and it teaches faster than any amount of reading about it.
Teachers who cannot explain how they know
You have learned from people who show their working, which is the right filter for most purposes and screens out an entire category of knowledge. Spend time with somebody whose skill is genuinely intuitive and who cannot tell you how they do it. Watching is the only transmission available and it works.
Meaning that is not an argument
The long thread here is a relationship with significance that does not run through reasoning: music, landscape, ritual, whatever gets past your defences without permission. Those experiences have been treated as pleasant and unserious. Give one of them a regular place in your year and take it as seriously as you take evidence.
Follow the hunch you cannot justify
Your professional decisions are made on analysis and the hunches get filed as unreliable, which has been correct often enough to be persuasive and has also cost you things. Act on one this year without building a case for it first. The record afterwards is the only way to find out how good yours are.
Some of it will not make sense
You assess compatibility on observable evidence, which is sensible and misses whatever it is that actually makes two people work. Let one relationship proceed on a basis you cannot defend to a friend. It may not last. It is also the only way to find out what the criteria were failing to capture.
Let the family story stay unresolved
There are things in your family history that will never be established: what somebody meant, why a decision was taken, what actually happened that year. You have been treating that as an open case. Close it without an answer. Living with an unresolved account is a skill, and this arena keeps offering to teach it.
Trust the sense that something is off
Your body sends signals that do not correspond to anything measurable, and you have learned to discount them until they can be verified. That filter is delaying you. Take one such sense seriously this year without waiting for confirmation — rest, stop, change something. Being wrong costs very little in this direction.