Call it holding water in your hands
Call it holding water. You can carry it, briefly, and the arrangement requires constant attention or it is simply gone. Pluto in Pisces in the 2nd house puts the dissolving power into what you own, so resources here move, seep and change shape rather than sitting still.
The Pisces half of this is not personal to you: Pluto colours an entire span of birth years the same way and none of that describes an individual. The 2nd house was decided by your birth time and is the half to read as yours. It puts the boundary problem directly into money and self-worth, which is why you can be extremely capable and still unable to say clearly what you are worth.
Where the fog came from
In the household behind this, money was either not discussed or discussed in a way that was impossible to pin down: reassurances that did not match the evidence, a situation nobody would state plainly. You learned that the subject was not one you were allowed to see clearly, and the not-seeing continued long after anyone was concealing anything.
The way it leaves
Money does not usually disappear here in one decision. It leaves in small unrecorded amounts, in favours, in the thing you covered for somebody, in the subscription nobody cancelled. Each item is defensible and the total is not visible anywhere. Looking at the total once a month is the entire remedy, and it is the thing you most avoid.
Read as generous, running on porousness
People experience you as open-handed and you are, and there is also a component that is simply an inability to hold a line while somebody is in need in front of you. The two look identical from outside and they are not the same thing. Decide the amount before the conversation, then give it warmly.
Build a container, then be as open as you like
The answer here is not discipline, which you will not sustain, it is structure that operates without you: the separate account, the automatic transfer, the sum that leaves before you see it. Once the container exists you can be as generous as you want with what remains, and the generosity stops costing you the foundation.
The figure you do not actually know
There is a good chance you could not state your current position within a reasonable margin, and the not-knowing is doing something for you. Write the four real numbers on one page. It will be uncomfortable for an hour and then it will be an ordinary page, and the anxiety that has been running on fog loses its fuel.
You are the one who lends and does not chase
Somebody in your family owes you money, and both of you know it, and you have decided the relationship matters more. That may be right. Say once, clearly, that the sum is a gift or that it is a debt, because the third option, leaving it undefined, is the one that quietly costs you both the most.
You do not charge for the best part
The thing you are genuinely rare at is the thing you throw in: the reading of the situation, the extra hour, the part you do not consider work. Clients receive exactly what you invoice for. Put a line on the invoice for it, even at a modest figure, so that its value is stated somewhere other than in your own head.
The one who never mentions the amount
You cover things, you round down what you are owed, you cannot bring yourself to name a sum in front of friends. It keeps every gathering pleasant and it makes you slightly invisible in your own finances. Name one amount out loud this month, in a friendly voice. It is a smaller event than it feels.
The vagueness has a physical cost
Unresolved financial fog does not stay abstract: it turns into disturbed sleep and a low background dread you cannot attach to anything specific. The body is responding to an unknown rather than to a bad figure. Look at the actual numbers on a fixed day, because the dread is being generated by the not-looking.