Call it a working life with no single job title
Call it a career made of several careers. Neptune in Gemini in the 10th house means your public identity keeps being revised: the thing you are known for changes every few years, all the versions are real, and no single description has ever covered it.
People born within a few years of you share the word-tinted longing. What they do not share is the address — for you it is the 10th house, so it applies to your direction and reputation rather than to your everyday conversation.
A role that would contain all of it
What you keep looking for is a position broad enough to use everything you can do, so that nothing has to be left outside the job description. Such roles are rare and usually have to be constructed rather than applied for. Where you cannot find one, running two things deliberately is a better arrangement than compressing yourself into one.
The explaining, at every introduction
Every professional encounter begins with an account of what you do, and yours takes four sentences and still leaves people uncertain. That is a real tax: it costs energy, it costs credibility, and it costs referrals, since people can only recommend what they can summarise. Write one sentence and use it unchanged for a year, even where it is incomplete.
They read the range as never having committed
A varied record looks, to a conventional eye, like a series of things that did not work out, and the interpretation is applied automatically and rarely stated. You are then arguing against a conclusion nobody has voiced. Supply the through-line yourself, in the first minute, before the record is read. Whoever narrates it first owns the interpretation.
Write one coherent account of the whole thing
Sit down and construct the story that connects everything you have done: what the constant is, what each phase contributed, why the sequence makes sense. There is one, and you have never assembled it. Use it everywhere. It is not spin; it is the only version in which your actual working life is legible to anybody else.
The value is in what nobody else could have connected
What makes you worth hiring is not any single capability but the combination — two or three fields that almost nobody holds together. That is your actual proposition and you keep leading with the individual parts. Name the combination explicitly and price it accordingly. Rarity is where the money is, and the rarity is in the joining.
Several lives, and no obvious summary
You have lived through more distinct phases than most people do, each with its own world and vocabulary, and any account of your life leaves out most of it. That is abundance rather than incoherence. Keep a written record as you go. Without one, whole years become unavailable to you, and you have already lost some.
A professional reputation that differs by circle
People in different fields know you for different things, and none of them holds the whole picture, so your standing is high in several places and consolidated nowhere. Introduce your worlds to each other occasionally, at whatever scale is manageable. The overlap between them is where the unusual opportunities live, and it will not occur unless somebody arranges it, which means you.
Each of your reputations is worth a different rate
You are known in more than one field and paid at each field's going rate, so identical expertise earns wildly different amounts depending on which door you came through. Nobody is going to point this out to you. Find out which of your identities commands the best rate, lead with that one, and bring the others in as the reason you are unusual.
Too many things running at once, indefinitely
Your working pattern keeps several projects live simultaneously, and the mental load of that is continuous rather than peaked, so it never presents as overwork. It presents as difficulty sleeping and an inability to settle. Close two things properly this quarter. Reducing the count does more for you than reducing the hours.