What you believed was tested by a loss
Pluto in Sagittarius in the 8th house puts the search for meaning into loss, dependency and shared resources. Something happened that your existing account of the world could not absorb, and rebuilding the account was the actual work of that period, not recovering from the event.
The Sagittarius colouring came from the period rather than from you, since Pluto crosses a sign over decades and everybody in that window carries the same restlessness. Your birth time placed it in the 8th house, and that is the individual half. It aims the searching at endings and what is jointly held, which is why your beliefs have been rewritten by bereavements and settlements rather than by books.
The test is not requiring it to mean something
When something bad happens your instinct is to find what it was for, and the finding genuinely helps until it becomes a way of not looking at it. Some events have no lesson attached. Sitting with one of those, without extracting anything, is the exercise here. It is considerably harder for you than the loss itself and it is the part that actually finishes.
How the search is misread
People in the middle of their own difficulty find your framing either enormously helpful or completely unbearable, depending on the day and on how soon you offer it. You do not always read which. Ask before you interpret, every time, since an explanation arriving too early lands as a dismissal of what they are going through.
You cannot tolerate the polite account
On the honest version. In matters of money, death and dependency you cannot tolerate the polite account, and you will say the true thing at a funeral or in a settlement meeting while everybody else is managing the room. It is frequently the most useful contribution present. It is also occasionally the most expensive, and the difference is entirely in the timing.
Conviction that has been through something
What you believe now was tested to the point of breaking and rebuilt, which is why it carries weight when you state it and why the intervening period was genuinely bleak. That is the asset here. Keep a record of what you believed before each collapse, since without one you will treat the current position as final and it is not.
You backed something and it went either way
At some point you committed money that was not entirely yours, or somebody committed theirs on your account, and the outcome shaped how you have handled shared finances ever since. Whichever way it went, the lesson you drew was probably too broad. Test it once against the actual figures rather than the memory, since the story has been doing the deciding for a long time.
Intimacy has to go somewhere
Closeness that does not develop feels to you like a room with no door, and the discomfort arrives well before anything is wrong. Partners experience it as restlessness or as pressure to advance. Say that you need the relationship to be going somewhere, plainly, since it sounds reasonable when stated and looks like dissatisfaction when merely demonstrated.
The event that rewrote your account
There is a specific thing after which you did not think about the world in the same way, and everything since has been built on the revised version. You may not have told many people that the revision happened. It was the most significant intellectual event of your life. Give it to somebody in full, once, because it is currently doing its work entirely in private.
Grief goes into the body as restlessness
After something serious you do not slow down, you accelerate: the trip booked, the course started, the plan that gets you moving again. It works for a while and the unprocessed part settles into the hips, the digestion and sleep that is busy rather than restful. Stay still for one week after the next one, deliberately, and let the slowness be the thing you do.
Teaching what the difficult years taught you
The material you can genuinely speak about is what you learned when your account of the world came apart, and audiences can tell the difference between that and theory within about a minute. It is your strongest professional asset and the one you are most reluctant to use. Put it into the work directly, since keeping it separate has been costing you the thing that makes you worth listening to.