Not silence at home, two competing accounts
It was not a silent house. It was a house with two accounts of the same events, and you were expected to operate in both. Pluto in Gemini in the 4th house puts the sorting of true from plausible at the foundation, so certainty about your own past is hard to reach.
The discrepancy you never got to the bottom of
It collects on the discrepancy. A date that does not fit, a relative whose story changed between tellings, a photograph that contradicts the version you were given. You have carried a small permanent investigation since childhood and it has never closed, because nobody has ever given you a complete answer. That is the real weight here, and it is mental rather than emotional.
The restlessness that lives at home
You rearrange, you move, you cannot settle in a room for long, and it reads to other people as being hard to please. It is closer to the base never having felt fixed in the first place. Notice when the impulse to move is genuinely about the place and when it is about a question that has not been answered.
What people at home get wrong
Your household finds you talkative and slightly absent, present in the room and clearly elsewhere. They read it as distraction. What is happening is that a running analysis is going on that has nothing to do with them. Say what you are actually thinking about occasionally, because from outside there is no way to distinguish it from indifference.
Two accounts, held without collapsing them
The resolution here is not finding out which version was true. It is being able to hold both, know why each was told, and stop requiring a verdict. That is a genuinely difficult mental act and you are equipped for it. Practise it on one family story this year and notice how much energy the search was consuming.
You have rewritten your own origin more than once
Your account of your childhood has changed substantially at least twice, and each revision felt like arriving at the truth. That is not unreliability, it is the material being genuinely ambiguous. Write the current version down and date it, since the next revision will otherwise erase this one and you will lose the record of how you got here.
Your place is a thoroughfare
People come through your home constantly: neighbours, friends of friends, somebody staying a week. You like it and it also means your base is never quite private. Keep one room or one hour that is not available to anybody, since the openness is genuine and it has never had a limit set on it.
The house is too loud for the nervous system
Noise, interruption and constant low-level input at home cost you more than they cost most people, and you have arranged your life so that there is always something on. The tiredness is sensory rather than physical. Take one hour of actual quiet at home each day, with nothing running, and treat it as a requirement instead of a luxury.
Talking is how you come home
What settles you at the end of a day is not affection or food, it is somebody to think out loud with, and without it the day does not close. Your partner may believe you need space when what you need is conversation. Say which one it is when you walk in, because they have been guessing and getting it wrong.
Two homes, or one that keeps changing
Your domestic finances tend to be split or in motion: two places, frequent moves, an arrangement nobody else would find restful. It suits you and it costs more than a settled version would. Count the actual annual cost of the mobility once, so that you are choosing it deliberately rather than paying for it by default.