Everybody in your circle is useful
Nothing is wrong with your circle; it is simply that everybody in it is useful. With the North Node in Pisces in the 11th house, belonging is supposed to run on something other than function. You need one group you are part of for no practical reason at all.
Your relationships have all been assembled around shared activity, which is a genuine basis and quietly means nobody is there for no reason. Some of them would like to be.
Company with no purpose feels like waste
Sitting with people while nothing is being achieved produces a low restlessness and a private accounting of what the time could have been used for instead. Stay put through it. The value of that hour arrives afterwards rather than during, which is why your usual assessment has always returned the wrong answer.
Join something you are not good at
Start with a group where you contribute nothing in particular: no expertise, no role, no organising. Turn up and simply be one of the people who are there. Being present without being useful is the exercise, and it is a state you may not have occupied since you were a child. Give it three months before deciding anything.
Becoming useful within a month
The retreat is competence: you join something, notice what is not working, and within weeks you have a role and everybody is glad about it. It resolves the discomfort immediately and it quietly ends the practice. Notice yourself starting to be helpful in a new group, and decline the first two things you are offered.
People who are there for no reason
What accumulates is a set of relationships with no shared task underneath them: friendships that do not depend on a project, a group that continues after the reason for it ends. Those are the ones that turn out to matter when things go badly, and they cannot be built out of usefulness at all.
Keep the friend who is not much help
Your circle has been quietly filtered for people who function well, and one or two who do not have drifted or been let go. Reach back to somebody chaotic and unreliable whom you actually liked being around. Friendship that survives being inconvenient is a different category altogether, and you have very little of it.
A future you cannot see clearly
Every version of what is ahead has been drawn in specifics, which restricts it to things you can already imagine. Let one part of the picture stay indistinct: a direction rather than a plan, a feeling about a place, a pull toward something unnamed. Follow the indistinct part once and see where it goes.
Give time to something outside the field
Your professional generosity flows to people who can use it well and reciprocate eventually, which is efficient and quietly transactional. Give an afternoon a month to something entirely unconnected to your work or your prospects in it. Nothing at all will come back, and that absence is the specific practice this arena is asking for.
Let attraction be unaccountable
You explain your attractions to yourself in terms of qualities and compatibility, and the ones that do not fit that account get quietly discounted. Take one seriously without the explanation. It may go nowhere at all. The willingness to move on something you cannot account for is what is being trained here.
Company you do not have to be useful in
Social occasions that require you to contribute — to organise, to help, to be competent at something — are restorative for other people and expensive for you. Find one recurring setting where nothing at all is being asked of you by anybody. That particular kind of company is where your system actually stands down properly.