Most circles have a boundary; yours has never had one
Most people can say who is in their group. With Neptune in Pisces in the 11th house you cannot: your circle shades outward with no edge, taking in anybody who arrives, and the people at the far end have as much access to you as the people at the centre.
Anyone born close to you in time was handed the same wish for edgelessness; that half is common property. The difference is which door it came through, and yours opens onto the 11th house, so it went into friendship and the future rather than into your own outline.
A community with nobody excluded
What you keep imagining is a group where everybody is welcome, nothing is required for entry and nobody is turned away. It is a generous vision and it has a mechanical flaw: a group with no threshold cannot hold anything, because belonging means something only where it could have been withheld. Some doors have to close for the room to exist.
They read the openness as having no standards
Because you accept everybody, your regard carries less information than other people's, and those you value most cannot tell they have been chosen. It is a specific and unintended cost of generosity. Say to two or three people that they are particular to you. Being welcomed by somebody who welcomes everyone is not the same as being chosen.
You are carrying the group's mood home
A gathering with an undercurrent in it — somebody unhappy, a rift nobody has named — reaches you completely, and you take it away and process it for days as though it were yours. Ask whose it is before you start managing it. The question costs nothing and it stops you spending a week on a situation you are not part of.
Write down who is actually there
List the people who would turn up if something went wrong tomorrow. It is a short, specific, slightly uncomfortable document and it is the only accurate picture of your circle you will ever have, because your sense of it is generous and includes a great many people who would not. Then invest in the ones on the list.
Everybody is welcome and it costs you the centre
Your openness means anybody can join, which is genuinely rare, and it also means the people who would have formed a core are diluted among those who happened to arrive. Concentration is the missing element. Give three people more of your time than the rest, deliberately and unequally, and let the outer circle be an outer circle.
The future you picture has no edges either
Asked what you want the years ahead to look like, what arrives is a quality rather than a plan: a feeling, an atmosphere, a way things would be. That is a real answer and it cannot be acted on. Convert one part of it into something specific with a date attached. The specificity is the whole difficulty and it is the only route to any of it.
The friendship became something else without a conversation
Boundaries between friendship and romance are unmarked for you, so relationships change category by drift rather than by decision, and both parties can be some way in before anybody says anything. It causes real damage in a circle. Say what is happening as it happens, even clumsily. The clumsy version is far better than the drift.
Large gatherings cost you two days
A room full of people is an intake rather than an event for you, and the bill arrives a day or two later as a flatness you attribute to something else entirely. Plan around the delay: nothing demanding after anything large, and a quiet stretch afterwards booked in advance. Once the lag is visible you can work with it instead of being repeatedly surprised.
You lend to whoever asks and keep no record
Money moves out of your accounts towards anybody in your circle who needs it, without terms, without a running total, and mostly without being remembered by either party. Keep a record, not to collect but to know the annual figure. Where a loan was really a gift, say so at the time. It is kinder and it is usually the truth.