Watching you fall for somebody explains most of this
It is total, private and immediate. A Scorpio Moon in the 5th house does not do light romance, minor enthusiasms or hobbies held at arm's length. Whatever you enjoy, you enjoy completely, and you would rather have nothing than have a diluted version.
That intensity is also where your creative power sits. What you make reaches material other people avoid, and it has a weight to it that lighter work cannot manufacture. It costs you something to produce and it is worth what it costs.
You go where the work gets uncomfortable
Creative material here comes from what is difficult: the thing not usually said, the feeling most people edit out, the subject that makes a room shift. You handle it without flinching and audiences recognise the honesty immediately. Keep going past the point where you would normally stop, since that is where your actual work begins.
Enjoyment is private by preference
What you love is often not advertised: the interest nobody knows about, the work not shown, the relationship kept out of general circulation. The privacy protects it from being diminished by other people's opinions. That is a defensible arrangement, provided somebody eventually gets to see one of these things. Showing one person one thing is the whole requirement here, and it does not have to become a habit to have done its work.
Attachment brings its own suspicion
Where you have invested this much, watchfulness follows: who else they talk to, what a delay in replying means, whether something has changed. The intensity of the caring is producing it and the person on the other end simply experiences surveillance. Say what you are afraid of losing rather than monitoring for signs of losing it.
Play something you do not mind losing
Take up an activity with no stakes, in which you have no investment and no reputation, and be visibly mediocre at it. This is genuinely difficult here and it is the direct counterweight to a temperament that turns everything enjoyable into something serious. The point is a pleasure that cannot be lost. Choose it deliberately in a field where nobody who knows you is present, since a reputation would ruin the exercise immediately.
The early stage is already deep water
What other people experience as a promising beginning, you experience as something significant already underway, and you can be entirely committed before the third meeting. That is real and it is not shared. Slow the outward steps rather than the feeling, and give the other person space to arrive at their own pace without treating the difference as evidence.
Few people, and nothing superficial
Your enjoyable evenings involve two or three people and a conversation that goes somewhere real; large light gatherings leave you flat and looking for the exit. That is a legitimate preference rather than a social deficiency. Arrange your leisure around it deliberately instead of attending things that were never going to work. One evening a year in a crowd is worth attending anyway, purely to confirm the preference rather than to inherit it.
Children get somebody who takes them seriously
You do not talk down to young people, you notice what is actually going on with them, and they can tell. That makes you the adult a child confides in. The one thing to watch is intensity of expectation, since your investment in a child's life is total and can be felt by them as pressure.
Creative work with something at stake
Fields where the material is difficult and the standard is unsparing suit you: investigative work, serious fiction, any practice where going deeper is the whole value. Light commercial output will bore you into leaving. Choose depth over volume, and price the work accordingly, since few people can produce what you can. Anonymity suits you where it protects the material, so consider the pen name rather than abandoning the subject.
Intensity is the recovery, not the strain
What restores you here is not gentle leisure but something that takes everything: the hard training session, the demanding piece of work, the long absorbed evening. Mild pleasant activity leaves you restless. Build the recovering part of your week out of things that genuinely require you, since half-measures do not discharge anything. Watch only that the demanding thing stays a pleasure rather than becoming another obligation with a schedule attached.