Your sense of how things are came from somewhere you cannot cite
Your understanding of how the world works did not arrive through reasoning. Mars in Pisces in the 9th house builds a worldview out of experience, atmosphere and something closer to apprehension than to argument, and the result is largely undefendable and frequently correct.
The sign is why there is no chain of reasoning available and the house is why the subject is the largest questions there are. That leaves you holding positions of real depth with nothing to produce when somebody asks how you arrived at any of them.
Unable to argue for what you actually know
In a discussion you lose to people with a fraction of your understanding, because they have a structure and you have a conclusion. That is a presentation problem rather than a knowledge one. Build the argument backwards afterwards, on paper, since the finding is genuinely yours and it deserves something somebody can follow.
Travel that changes rather than shows
The journeys that mattered to you were the ones where something came apart: the place that undid an assumption, the stretch alone that rearranged a decision, the week that quietly ended a chapter you had thought was still open. Sightseeing does almost nothing and you have been on several trips that produced no effect whatsoever. Choose destinations for what they are likely to do to you rather than for what is in them, and go alone at least once.
Teaching by transmission rather than instruction
What you pass on travels through presence rather than through explanation: people learn from being around you and would struggle to say what was taught. That is a real form of teaching and it is invisible on any curriculum. Where a structure is required, borrow one, because yours will not produce it.
A faith you have never described
There is something you actually hold about how existence works, arrived at privately, that has never been said out loud to anybody. It is not secret; the occasion has simply never presented itself. Write it down once, in whatever words come. Something that has never taken a form drifts, and yours has had no correction available.
You knew before you could say why
The important turns in your life were taken on a sense rather than on a case, and the reasoning arrived afterwards if at all. That method has a considerably better record than you give it credit for, and you have spent years apologising for it to people using a different one. Keep a note of the decisions and how they turned out. The record is the defence.
Work where sensing beats systematising
Fields that reward reading a situation rather than processing it will pay for what you have: the creative, the therapeutic, the pastoral, anything where the useful judgement cannot be written down. In procedure-driven environments you underperform badly whatever the pay. Choose on that basis and stop trying to become good at the other kind.
The body reports on where you are
Unfamiliar places affect you physically in ways that have nothing to do with the travelling itself: the sleep that improves abroad, the appetite that returns in one kind of landscape, the fortnight in which an old ache simply stops. Take note of which conditions do that. It is information about where you ought to be living rather than a curiosity about holidays.
They have to be able to hold a loose thread
What you need is somebody comfortable leaving a question open, since your own way of arriving at things involves long stretches where nothing is settled and any pressure to resolve early produces a worse answer. That is a genuine compatibility requirement rather than a quirk. Watch how a person handles not knowing something, early on, because it predicts more about how the two of you will go than anything they believe does.
You left the frame without announcing it
You quietly stopped holding what your family holds, without a break or a declaration, and the difference is felt at gatherings without ever being named. Nobody is going to raise it. Say one true sentence about what you actually think, to one relative, since the unspoken version is a larger distance than the spoken one would be.