What you make is ahead of its audience
Because Jupiter runs Aquarius through your 5th house, what you produce tends to arrive before anybody is ready for it: the format, the approach, the idea that makes sense several years later. Making the expected thing bores you. What this needs is patience with an audience that is running behind.
That timing is structural rather than bad luck. Your instinct for where something is heading is genuine, and the price of being right early is that the recognition, when it comes, arrives attached to somebody else's version.
Romance conducted on unusual terms
Your relationships have not followed the standard sequence, and you have generally negotiated the arrangement rather than assuming it. That honesty is unusual and it filters heavily. Say what you are proposing plainly at the start, since the person who wants the same thing will be relieved and the one who does not should find out now.
Play that involves other people
Your enjoyment is collective: the group project, the shared game, the thing being built with a crowd of people. Solitary entertainment does very little. Given an empty weekend your first instinct is to organise something with a crowd in it. A day of solitary entertainment leaves you flatter than a working one. That is worth arranging for deliberately, since your pleasures require organising and nobody else is going to convene them.
Children are consulted from the beginning
You explain your reasoning to younger people, take their objections seriously and decline to pull rank, which produces children who argue well and expect to be consulted. It is a genuine gift. Be willing to simply decide occasionally, since a child who has never met an unnegotiable answer has nothing to push against.
You will not make the commercial version
Asked to produce the safe or popular edition of your own work, something in you refuses, and you have walked away from money on those grounds more than once. The principle is real. Decide which projects it applies to, since applying it everywhere means the work reaches nobody and the principle protects nothing.
You are raising them to disagree with you
With your own children the aim is independence rather than closeness: you want them to think for themselves even when it is inconvenient, and you have been consistent about it. That is a serious gift. Say out loud that you also want them nearby, since a child taught only to leave may not realise the second half was ever on offer.
You have given the work away
A good deal of what you have produced was released freely, shared or handed over because charging felt wrong for that particular thing. Some of it was worth a great deal. Decide in advance which things are free, since the decision made afterwards is always the same and the pattern has cost you a substantial sum.
Friendship first, and it usually stays
Attraction for you tends to grow out of genuine friendship and the transition is gradual enough that neither party can date it. What is missing afterwards is any moment of declaration. Say plainly what changed at some point, since a bond that was never named leaves the other person permanently unsure of its status.
You would rather be interesting than successful
Given the choice between the conventional achievement and the unusual attempt, you have consistently taken the second and would do so again. That is a coherent value and it has a cost you rarely count. Say it explicitly to yourself, since a good deal of your dissatisfaction comes from measuring the result against a scale you deliberately rejected.
The work you do for nothing is the good work
What you produce outside any commission is consistently better than what you produce to order, and you have generally treated that as evidence of a discipline problem. It is not. Find a way to be paid for the unpaid work, since the quality is the thing worth selling and the arrangement is the only obstacle.
